do i really want Jesus alone?
if i was stripped of everything else. . .would i still be content? is He more than enough? if i was in job’s situation, would i truly be able to say blessed be the name of the Lord?
i have really been pondering these questions for the past few weeks. naively, a year ago i would have told you, of course, i want Jesus. i may have even been so bold to say He was enough. and i would have been lying.
i wanted the blessings He could give me more than i wanted Him. and there is a difference. a huge difference.
you see, i knew that knowing Him wouldn’t come easy. that my idols would have to be torn down. and i don’t mean those made of gold, i mean relationships, control, dreams, plans. anything competing with Him would have to be removed. He refuses to compete.
the removal of our idols hurts. . .bad. those idols can be seemingly good things. but they aren’t Jesus. . .and He doesn’t share His glory with another.
sometimes we hold so tight to those good things. . .those things we love dearly. . .that He has to break our fingers to release our grip.
He didn’t stop with my fingers.
He will break those bones. gently and tenderly. . .wiping the tears from your eyes, whispering in your ear reminding you that He loves you. that He knows best. and He is I AM. that He is more than enough.
if you went back ten months ago and gave me a choice between marrying my beloved and this bone-breaking, deeper knowing process with the Lord. . .to this day i still would choose marrying my beloved.
i guess i still have a ways to go. . .
but i am learning. learning that He must be at the bottom of my joy. and once He is there. . .
. . .He can begin to mend the bones He has broken and properly restore relationships.
what about you? is Jesus truly more than enough for you?