this particular song was written for sweet kate mcrae. if you don’t know her story, you can find it here. somehow i stumbled upon her website a while back and have been keeping up with her story and praying for her. the Lord has really used not only her story, but this song for me in my life right now.
i feel like a young child right now in life and my walk with Christ. i feel like i need Jesus to protect me as if i was young and helpless again. in all honesty, i really am young and helpless. i think we really forget that sometimes. we forget that no matter how big we get, our Daddy is just waiting for us to crawl up in His lap and let him take care of us. even at 23 years old, i will crawl up in my dad’s big red chair with him and just sit in his lap. and no matter how old i get i know that i will always be welcome there.
just like my earthly father longs to protect me from the evils of this world and hold me and try to help ease my pain when i am hurting, my Heavenly Father wants to do those things, too. however, just like pain and suffering have allowed me to develop a stronger and deeper relationship with my earthly father, the same is true in our relationship with our Heavenly Father.
i wouldn’t know or trust my daddy was going to take care of me in good and bad if he hadn’t proven that in my 23 years. i also wouldn’t have the same depth of relationship that we have now. i wouldn’t get a text message after calling sobbing, then getting mad, hanging up on him, and being just plain mean that said, “L, i love you, i don’t know why you have to go through this, but God has a plan. . .it sucks right now.” he loves me even when i am mean, crummy, and not fun to love.
how will we ever know that God, our Heavenly Father, loves us when we are messy, when we are mad, when we shake our fist in His face, and when we don’t know why if we are never in a place where we have to?
i think i am learning that God loves me. me. as i am. and He desires more of me. and He wants me to trust Him as a child — because God often requires us to have extraordinary faith, faith that trusts even though we can’t see what is going to happen next, even though we don’t know how He is going to restore/reconcile/work His plan to completion.
and the words to this song just have really spoken to me and reminded me of how beautiful child-like faith really is. that faith is what i want to return to. . .
i don’t want to be big, strong, and ready to conquer the world.
because just like my earthly father, my Heavenly Father is always going to be looking out for my best — and sometimes my best means that i have to experience pain.
He can’t and won’t protect me from it all because i wouldn’t learn to trust Him with everything if He did.
Look at all the angels watching you
They’re singing songs that we have never heard
Their voices ring like bells over the mountains
Oh, if only we could hear their words
God is near, little girl.
Your eyes are brilliant,deep sky blue.
Your quiet wisdom is an evening song.
The angels must be breathless at your beauty
Like the world catches its breath before the dawn.
God is near, little one.
And Jesus bends to hear you breathe;
His tender hands are holding you tonight.
His heart is ravished when you look at Him,
and oh, the endless mercy in His eyes;
God is here, little light.